something i call it love

umm .. i don't know why suddenly i (yet again) thinking about this. frankly, i already don't want to discuss it and was disgusted to think about it again, LOVE. well, one word that is so easy to say but very difficult to enjoy. i want to ask, what is it LOVE? who knows? each person has their own definition of LOVE.

now, again and again i was trapped in LOVE. want to quit, but couldn't. want to be free, but couldn't. i have no idea what to do. i want a normal life unencumbered by the shadows of people that do not necessarily think of myself as well.

sometimes i want to be ignored by love. want to be do not care. indifferent. or whatever it was. but i can't do it. i was too weak to fight my own feelings. and now i've lost in it. want to rebel but i couldn't. i'm stupid? i'm weak? i don't know.

true love is very beautiful. if both parties love each other. promised to be faithful to each other. mutually committed to keeping their relationship very well. trust each other. look after each other. but it is different if we only love someone without him knowing. want to express but not impossible. and a more severe if unrequited. false hope. futile.

love is not forever should end up with beautiful. sometimes we are given the joy and excitement but it was likely we will also feel the pain. like life, sometimes we are on top and sometimes we also are under. it all happens with a reason. given pleasure as possible so that we can always appreciate what we have got so far. and sorrow will teach us to become more patient and strong in life.

and therefore, i will never feel regret with the love i have. although this love i can't express to him. but seeing him happy, i feel happy too. ironic. but precious to me. you'll never be able to feel happiness when i saw people who i care about happy smile. although he is happy with someone else. at least, i have provided a way for him to feel happiness. with people he loved, of course ! i believe that God always loves me. and someday, i will feel the happiness of my own. with people i loved, and cared for me ♥