Because you need me, I'd be stronger.

Without flaws nor pretend
i promised i'd be the one that always be there
to catch you when u fall.

No matter how hard things are gonna get.
I'd be stronger,
and you know, more than anyone else does,
that i will be stronger,
so you can lean on me.

Because you need me, I'd be stronger.

This is what i should've said.

him: Define love again? 

 

me : love is handing someone a gun and letting it point to your head believing that he wont pull the trigger. that's love.

Auuuch!

i dont have the prettiest face for you to look at, 

or the skinniest waist for  you to hold 

but i promise i do have the biggest heart to love you with <3

Introducing Me.

I’m good at wasting time
I think lyrics need to rhyme
And you’re not asking but I’m trying to grow a mustache

I eat cheese, but only on pizza, please
And sometimes on a homemade lasagna otherwise it smells like feet to me
And I, I really like it when the moon looks like a toenail
And I love you when you say my name

I never trust a dog to watch my food
And I like to use to the word “dude” as a noun, or an adverb, or an adjective
And I’ve never really been into cars
I like really cool guitars and superheroes
And cheques with lots of zeros on them
I love the sound of saxophone
And making someone smile.

MIHIHIHIHIHIHI ;;)

Want to know when I feel the most amazing?
When you look at me.
When you look at me I can’t hide anything. I feel like you know every secret, every wrong thing I’ve done, every thing that has ever made me sad, every thing that’s made me laugh until I cry, and every thing that’s broken my heart.
All that from a glance.
And while it’s traumatic for me to feel all of that at once, I just want you to look at me again. I love the way you make me feel.

TRUE TRUE TRUE

After a while, you learn the difference.
The difference between holding a hand, and falling in love.
You learn kisses don’t always mean something.
Promises can be broken as easily as they were made, and as hard as it is to believe, sometimes goodbyes…
Really are forever.

That's It !

Here’s when I love you:

• while brushing my teeth
• while grocery shopping
• while I walk to class
• while sleeping
• while kissing you

Here’s when you say you love me:

• while you clean your room
• while you dream
• while we’re on the phone
• while you kiss me

You love me a lot, but I think I love you one more

♥

I want a guy who will be my best friend.
We will share secrets and inside jokes.
He’ll make me laugh with his sarcastic humor.
I’ll make him laugh with my sarcastic humor.
I want a guy who can be romantic.
I want him to run his fingers through my hair and kiss me.
I want to run my fingers through his hair and kiss him.
I want to be able to cuddle with him until the sun rises.
I want a guy who will treat me right.
He will make me dinner and compliment me on my outfits.
He will take me out on dates and bring me on walks in the park.
He will call me beautiful.
I want a guy who I can have fun with.
I want to be able to go on endless drives singing at the top of our lungs together.
I want to dance in the living room at midnight to a loud, crazy song.
I want to slow dance at sunrise to silence.
I want a guy who will comfort me when I need to be comforted.
I want to be able to cry on his shoulder as he hugs me and tells me everything will be all right.
I want him to bring me my favorite soup when I’m sick.
I want to feel safe in his arms.
I want a guy who will love me more then anybody or anything in the world because I will sure as hell love him more than anybody or anything in the world.

April, 26th 2011 16.19 pm

If you are falling in love with me, it's fair to know what you’re falling in love with. you are falling in love with my insecurities and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. you are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overreactive tear duct, my internet obsession, you are falling in love with my troubled past and my hopes and dreams and how i'm hopeless romantic at heart. if you are falling in love with me, you are in love with my self-hate and imperfections and my perception that no-one could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when im with you, the way i’ll text you in the morning just to say i love and miss you. you are falling in love with the occasionally humorous or at times corny (hihi) things i say, and the way i blush when people ask me about you. but to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite me thinking that it’s impossible.

Love just like..

Love like letting someone into your room, even when it’s a mess. It’s embarassing, and they can see what a wreck you’ve made of everything. You try to push things under the bed, and into the closet so they won’t see. But they discover those things anyway, help you clean, and put them right back where they belong <3

April, 26th 2011 15.52 pm

It's 15.52 am, i'm accompanied by The Scripts new album Science and Faith.. this is some deep shit. i'm like hmm whats the word that people use lately “galau” is it? yeah, i'm feeling that.. well this is a first, i barely post something like this, it's usually about love or awesome quotes for life, and epic pictures. but today, since i cant find any cool sayings or rad pics, im just gonna tell 'blogspot' how the heck i'm feeling.

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, it's like i'm avoiding people near me, it's like i'm moving away from them.. Because maybe i just don't wanna feel left out, so it's better if i keep myself out rather than being kicked out. yeah, maybe thats why, or i'm just bored with the people around me, i need some new awesome peeps to keep me alive? idk. i just..

I'm sick of this dull life, in the movies, in the drama series its so fun.. okay maybe you’ll say d’uh its a friggin movie, but what about reality shows? they’re real right? they seem fun.. i wanna be fun.. im a boring ‘ol kid i guess.  mashed up feelings, ruining my life.

I need to figure out 'asap' what i want, i need to know. the sooner the better..

“Are they avoiding me, or is it just my thought.. or i just dont fit in anymore, and in need to find something exciting” -- this is what’s going on my mind.

DUMBSHIT.

I love it when you whisper I love you in my ear
I love it when you hold my hand when I’m not looking
I love it when you’d try to stay awake with me even though I know you’re only half awake
I love it when you’d try as hard to meet me wherever I am
I love it when you say cheesy things, but end up laughing about it with me
I love it when you kiss my forehead and squeeze me so tight
I love it when you call me a fool
I love it when we laugh about the dumbest things
I love it how I could act childish around you, and you could do the same back
I love it when you’d let me slap you just to make me feel better
I love it how you would never waste a second without talking to me, but give me space when I need it
I love it when you would offer to give me a piggy back when you can tell I’m tired
I love it how you’d say I love you when I’m down, and everything turns upside down
I love it when I say the things you say are bullshit, and you’d try as hard to prove me wrong
I love how you try to make me into a better person, but don’t ask for me to change who I am
I love it when you call me names and make fun of me, but let me slap you in the end
I love it when you hold my chin and kiss me
You’re the asshole who made me fall for you.
I love you

What am I to you?

Even if we don’t end up together,

I want you know that there is at least one person out there who genuinely cares about you.

I want to see you happy and successful and in love; even if it’s not with me.

I never want you to feel alone or think, even for a second, that you matter to no one; because you will always matter to me. 

You will always be the greatest in my eyes.

To me, you are the bee’s knees. 

What am I to you?

FOR REAL

Cause I’m for real
Are you for real?
I can’t help myself
It’s the way I feel
When you look me in the eyes like you did last night
I can’t stand to hear you say goodbye
Well it feels so right
‘Cause it feels so right just to have you standing by my side
So don’t let me go
Cause you have my soul
And I just wanted you to know.

SELAMAT HARI KARTINI

Wanita cantik itu:
:D tetap tertawa walau sebenarnya ia ingin menangis.
:) tetap tersenyum walau sbnrnya ia kecewa.
:* tetap kuat walau sbnrnya ia udh gak sanggup lagi.
;) tetap semangat walau ttekan oleh masalah.

Fears

Fear of love,
Fear of pain,
Fear of the unforgiving cane,
Fear of lies,
Fear of sighs,
Fear of those distraught eyes,
Fear for the unknown,
Fear for the known,
Fear of everything combined,
Fear is what makes me blind,
Fear is what makes me think,
and act in blind accordance,
Hindering the world around me,
Hence, My Fear of myself
Fear is when you run away,
Fear is when you’re scared to love someone,
Fear is when the sky turns grey,
Fear of confusion,
Fear is like a dark blue ocean,
Fear won’t let me escape
Fear mocks me, watching
Fear taunts me, waiting
Fear of losing,
Fear you cannot see,
Fear dealt upon thee.
Fear of darkness and death,
Fear of a dead comrade,
Fear of a gun being cocked,
Fear of being endlessly stalked,
Fear of time,
Fear of all the crime,
Fear of the undesirable truth,
Fear for the good.
Fear for the sake of life,
Fear of the neighbors next door,
Fear of the secretive man in the subway,
Fear of the revolutionary uproar,
Fear is to not rejoice your living,
Fear for the sake of your life,
But to fear is to forsake it.
Fear is to have no hope in life,
Fear of the fear of fear,
We need no reason to fear,
For fear has no reason for itself.
I guess life is just like that,
To fear for no reason,
For to fear is not to reason,
But to reason is to fear.
To fear for the sake of fear,
Is fear for fear,
So let me think,
What else do I fear?
What else do I fear?
What else do I fear?

Life is Beautiful

When will I become the sun that lights you up? all I can do is think about myself. No matter how old I get, I know I will never change, I disgust myself... But once you said to me "Just be yourself", that moment I knew how gifted I was.

And I could say "Life is beautiful"
You are a wonderful gift for me.

Always wanted to be like the hero in a movie to show myself bigger than the real me. But I have to play my character, for this is my movie that I'm starring in. For a long time, I had high ideals like mountains and I've hidden myself behind them. But I'm ok, Sun's gotta rise up, oh I wanna light you with my life.

I won't push myself too hard anymore.

I'll just be me whatever lies beyond this path.

And when you're lonely, I'll be close to you.

So you can say "Life is beautiful"

Jason Mraz-Love For a Child

  

There's a picture on my kitchen wall
Looks like Jesus and his friends involved
There's a party getting started in the yard
There's a couple getting steamy in the car parked in the drive
Was I too young to see this with my eyes?

By the pool last night, apparently
The chemicals weren't mixed properly
You hit your head and then forgot your name
And then you woke up at the bottom by the drain
And now your altitude and memory's a shame

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I like to believe it was all about love for a child

And when the house was left in shambles
Who was there to handle all the broken bits of glass
Was it mom who put my dad out on his ass or the other way around
Well I'm far too old to care about that now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd like to believe it was all about love for a child

It's kinda nice to work the floor since the divorce
I've been enjoying both my Christmases and my birthday cakes
And taking drugs and making love at far too young an age
And they never check to see my grades
What a fool I'd be to start complaining now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd love to believe it's all about love for a child

It was all about love...

Sakit? Pasti.

Pernah putus cinta?
Pernah sakit hati?
Aku mengalaminya. Saat ini.

Bagaimana rasanya?
Perih?
Pilu?
Sakit? Pasti.

Pernah merasakan jatuh ke dalam jurang sedalam 10 km?
Kira-kira bagaimana rasanya?
Sakit? Pasti.
Itu juga yang mungkin aku rasakan saat ini.
Tapi bukan sakit fisik, bukan.
Sakit secara psikis, lebih menyakitkan daripada sekedar sakit secara fisik.

Bagaimana ketika semua yang kita lakukan tidak berarti apa-apa.
Bagaimana ketika apa yang telah diperjuangkan ternyata sia-sia.
Bagaimana ketika semua yang telah dilalui tidak berbekas.
Bagaimana ketika seluruh cinta dan sayang berlalu begitu saja.
Bagaimana ketika perhatian yang telah tercurah sepenuhnya tidak bermakna.
Sakit? Pasti.

Rasanya aku sudah tak mampu bangkit.
Sakit sekali.
Mungkin melebihi tusukan puluhan pisau secara bersamaan.
Merobek tubuhku.
Memutuskan saraf-sarafku.
Otot-ototku terasa lumpuh.
Otakku sudah tak berfungsi dengan baik.
Napasku sudah semakin memendek.
Aku tak mampu, sungguh.

Tapi aku akan berusaha untuk bertahan.
Bernapas.
Berusaha bangkit dengan sekuat tenaga.
Dengan seluruh sisa-sisa kekuatanku.
Untuk mencari kebahagiaan yang lain.
Yang telah menantiku di ujung sana.
Menunggu untuk ku hampiri, dan kuraih.